02/27/2024
On "communication:"
I find that things are typically easy to explain. I have, however, experienced a good amount of difficulty being understood. This troubled me until just a few moments ago, actually. I wondered just how carefully a person's words must be chosen before the sheer effort involved in their organization was recognized and that maybe some effort should be wagered in decoding them with some candor.
I would beg away from the trappings of split-second facial expressions and microgestures...
I knew a million misunderstandings found refuge there and used my words to avoid them.
Still, as if i'd lied to them a million times to match, the words i chose were filtered through whatever preconceptions the listener already had.
I would take this a defeat.
What i learned just mere moments ago, though:
My capacity to explain and your capacity to understand are independent of each other. One having no authority to scale the other.
What is left is a simple matter of priority. Does what i'm saying matter to you?
That realization contained my self-indictment and, coincidentally, my liberation. I had to resist taking it personal if my words are of no import.
So, moving forward, i'll just keep chosing my words a precisely as a razor's edge. If that doesn't find purchase between the listener's web of loosely connoted, mindlessly parroted syllables and understandably private set of motivations, then...
It's fine. Probably wasn't that important, anyway.
